I just found a love letter from Mark from when we first fell in love over 8 years ago. We fell in love while I was just visiting Denver and he wrote this as soon as I left to go back to New Mexico. I still cannot fight the tears when I read it. Here is an excerpt…no, you cannot read the whole thing:
I miss you. I can’t breath without you here. I know I truly love you because of how empty I feel right now, without you here. I can still taste your tears. I can’t even handle it when someone mentions your name. This time apart will be harder than I thought. I love you so much. I don’t know how I’ll get up in the morning knowing that you’re not here.
When I got home today I almost passed out because I was so overwhelmed with sorrow.I want to give you the universe just so I can see you smile. I just keep thinking of you. I tried to think of anything else but it always led back to you. You’re everything in my life. Without you life isn’t worth living.
We have an epic kind of love! This letter should be put in a book as one of the great love letters of our time. And here’s the great thing – he still talks to me like that. He still makes me feel like I’m living a dream come true….better than any fairytale ever written!
I just found this picture of me from last summer. I’ve never seen it before and it’s HILARIOUS! I just lost a water balloon throwing contest (Mark won the contest – see picture below). I looks like I’m going to shout obscenities at the sky! I love finding funny pictures of myself…It makes me miss summer time already:
Mark - FTW!
Instead of writing a blog entry today, I built a shopping page for your shopping pleasure. Enjoy!
Since Mark and I work with youth a lot, we are quickly understanding how CRITICAL it is for young people to:
- Know the power of God
- Recognize the spiritual warfare taking place over their lives
- Learn to use the authority they have in Christ Jesus
I guess this isn’t just an issue with youth…it’s a problem in all of us. The spiritual realm is often mocked and laughed at nowadays – we are so focused on “living a good life” that we completely ignore the true spiritual battle happening.
It was common in my home to say the name of JESUS when you are scared and say “God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of POWER, LOVE, and a SOUND MIND”. It was also common in my home to recognize when something was demonic. We did not call spiritual disturbances “ghosts” we called them demons. It was a real thing to me and so was the power of Jesus. Even as a child I experienced demons fleeing by just saying the name of Jesus. Are kids still learning that in Christian homes?
People – WE HAVE THE VICTORY…even over DEATH! Depression, sickness, demonic opression MUST flee in the name of Jesus. We have the power…He gave it to us! We don’t have to live defeated any longer. All over the world, people are being raised from the dead, healed from diseases and using the authority Jesus handed to them. Why can’t we!?!?!?
1 And he called the twelve together and gave them power and authority over all demons and to cure diseases, 2 and he sent them out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal.
The older we get, the more we learn that bad things happen to good, Godly people. We don’t always get what we deserve. And we aren’t entitled to anything.
I feel like I grew up this week. I saw some really great people with families lose their jobs. Some I knew were faithful Christian people and some who have been faithful to this company for many, many years.
I do not believe my faith would have been shaken if I had lost my job. In fact, it would have challenged me to dig deeper, live in faith and give my whole world over to God. I can still do those things, but I’m much better under pressure.
Can we perfect our faith if everything always goes our way?
I’m safe. I still have my job. God is good (and he still would have been good if I lost my job today).
My company announced today that our CEO resigned and that they will be laying off 20 – 25% of staff. The layoffs will take place next week.
I have some options here on how I will react…
fearful, paniced, gossiping, angry, frustrated
full of faith, love, peace, joy, patience, self control, kindness etc…
Even if I lose my job next week, I know who my provider is. I am the head and not the tail. Above and not beneath. I am a child of God. I have the mind of Christ. I have Godly favor…there, I said it!
TODAY IS STILL THE DAY THE LORD HAS MADE;
I WILL REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT!